What If...

Have you ever had one of those days where your feelings did not seem to match with what God's Word says?  I know that I have, and I have often wondered why that is, but recently, a thought occurred to me that I had not thought of before, or if I have thought of it before, it has been so long, that I have since forgotten. Why do I seek God?  Is it for the great feeling that I get from Reading His Word?   The idea that I was seeking a "feeling" instead of Jesus was one that had not occurred to me before.  Being on Bi-Polar Medication has helped me to realize that God is not to be sought because He makes us "feel" good.  Before I was on medication, life was just one big thrill, or tragedy after another.  Now that I am on the medication, the intense thrills don't happen as much, but that's ok!  I'm not supposed to live on feeling.  My experience with God is so much more than a feeling.  Feelings come and feelings go, but God remains the same.  The lesson that I am starting to learn is that I should not seek God for a feeling.  I should seek God to be with Him.  Jesus meets our needs, sometimes I may think what I need is a feeling, but what I really need is His Promise instead.